Still waiting for final biopsy results from the doctor.
I have gotten all of your concerned calls and messages and emails. And I thank you. Sorry, I haven’t gotten back to everyone.
I’ve spent my past few days recovering from my surgery. Mostly hopped up on pain pills the first couple of days and short of breath. I have felt dramatically better over the past couple of days and now I mostly have a lingering soreness and minimal chest pain when I take a deep breath. All according to how the doctors told me I would progress.
On a side note: I started this blog as a way to keep in touch with a lot of people at once and also tell the story of what it takes to get through Hodgkin’s Treatment – something that other patients could read.
Now, sometimes, I feel like I’m writing some kind of online short story. That people tune in for ‘updates’ as if they were new chapters in a book. I have a love/hate relationship with this blog right now. I guess, a lot of it comes from the fact that I never thought I’d have to write on it again.
For every blog post I write, Jen and I go through days of happiness, sadness, concern, stress, laughter and anxiety. There are phone calls with family and friends. Emails. Facebook messages. Texts. It is difficult to tell the same story over and over again. Difficult to answer the question “How are you doing?” so many times a day.
I thought by creating a place where I could talk about my treatments would help me put Hodgkin’s in its place. It’s not my life but it is a big part of my life.
Now, looking down the barrel of facing more treatments, I have to not only come to terms with going through more physical trauma but also handling this ever present need to keep my audience updated.
I’m happy that technology gives me a window from which I can tell my story to so many at once. While at the same time, things were better a couple of months ago when I had slipped back into anonymity.
So please, bear with me as I readjust.