Monthly Archives: April 2012

Bendamustine

After seeing how much traffic I got from my post yesterday, I realized that it was kind of unfair for me not to write at least a quick update on my treatment.

I just completed my 2nd round of Bendamustine chemotherapy at City of Hope. According to my last PET scan in January, I still have some active lymph nodes in my chest that need to be knocked down or eliminated before I can get into transplant. We are hoping the Bendy does the trick. If it isn’t working or not working enough, I still have a few other chemo options to try to get my disease as close to remission as possible. The other chemo regimens are harsher and more toxic than the Bendy, which is why we have been avoiding them. But they are readily available.

About a month ago the lower 2/3 of my right lung collapsed. Previous scans and x-rays showed that the lymph nodes were putting pressure on my lower bronchial tubes, but the doctors didn’t seem too concerned about it. I was having breathing problems for awhile (coughing, wheezing, shortness of breath), and the hope was that my chemo treatments would reduce the lymph nodes, which would relieve the pressure on my bronchial tubes, which would solve the breathing problems.

Ask me again why the doctors didn’t seem too worried about it? Well, there was really nothing that could be done and we had to see how the I dealt with the Bendamustine treatment.

Unfortunately, after my first round of Bendy in the beginning of March, there was some kind of inflammation/interaction/mucus build-up/complication and my lower lung got blocked and collapsed. I spent a few days in the hospital getting worked over and they took a look. But, at this stage, there is nothing the pulmonary doctors can do to get my lung re-opened.

The blockage is being caused by enlarged lymph nodes -> the chemo is supposed to reduce the size of the lymph nodes -> which will hopefully open up my airway.

That’s the plan. I’ve got another PET scan scheduled in a couple of weeks to see how things are progressing. And probably another bronchoscopy after that to take a look in my airways and see how things are holding up.

I mentioned yesterday that I’ve been pretty angry and frustrated… Without going into details, spending a week in the hospital and having my mobility limited due to my collapsed lung has taken a toll on me. And then add a shitty weekend of chemo on top of it all and that makes Stephen a frustrated boy. The past couple of days, I’ve been coming out of my chemo sickness but my shortness of breath and fatigue keep me pretty limited. I also have a constant and ridiculously annoying cough at all times.

So, I’m laying low. Conserving my energy. And holding out for the next round of scans and decisions.

 

Life, Interrupted

I’ve been too angry and frustrated to post on this blog in the past couple of months. But there are other voices out there telling their story.

Click through to learn about Saleika Jaouad’s stem cell journey. A 23 year old woman with leukemia, she is posting weekly on the NYTimes Well blog under the title of “Life, Interrupted.” I admire her bravery for sharing her story. I worry about her ability to sustain and continue to give when she will need so much support during her transplant.

If you come to this blog to learn more about what I’m going through, all you have to do is listen to the stories of my fellow cancer warriors.

I applaud and salute her.

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/author/suleika-jaouad/